Monthly Archives: March 2015

Springing into action

I’ve gone from zizz to bizz….or in other words, from having a rest, to having lots on.

As far as writing goes, I contributed what’s the lead article in the latest BRACE newsletter. You can see it online here…….

http://www.alzheimers-brace.org/sites/default/files/newsletters/BRACEnewsletter_spring2015.pdf?utm_source=BRACE+Master+List%21&utm_campaign=622284cb82-BRACE_Spring_Newsletter_20153_30_2015&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_7ed74f6133-622284cb82-92226013

I’ve just published online the information needed to enter this year’s Otter Rail and River 10km and fun run, which I organise on behalf of  Tipton St John Playing Field Association. You can read more via the links on our website here – http://www.tiptonpfa.wordpress.com

I’ve written a couple of articles for the village newsletter the Tipton Times, which is out this week.

20150330_16520320150330_164602I’m in the process of redesigning and improving the garden – as you can see from the pictures not before time.

And I’m redecorating the lounge as we just had a replacement window fitted.

I was helping to marshal at a race yesterday, so hardly anytime to run much myself recently, but I reckon if I shoot off quickly now I can  get a couple of miles in.

Must be back soon as I’m off to see Still Alice, the Oscar-winning film starring Julianne Moore about dementia.

Spring is definitely in the air.

Having a rest!

Three weeks to go to the Brighton Marathon – number 48.

Six weeks to North Dorset – number 49.

Ten weeks to Edinburgh – number 50.

And I’ve pulled a calf muscle!

So having a short break from running and taking a rest from the blog this week too.

Zzzzzzzz

 

 

My Secret Shoe Fetish

 

With thanks to Laura Joint http://www.laurajoint.co.uk/ for all photographs

Fresh and raring to go

Fresh and raring to go

When I began running more than 10 years ago I was confidently sure one pair of shoes would see my somewhat non-committal exercise choice to its full.

I’d jogged around my first few Race for Life 5kms in an old pair of trainers, but signing up for a half marathon, I realised I needed to seek out something that was a bit more fit for purpose.

I was dazzled by the choice in the shop. Had not a clue what to even try on, let alone buy. But with the help of the knowledgeable, friendly assistant I settled on a pair of Saucony Jazz trainers – so new, so well-made, so unworn – surely they would carry me all the miles my legs would ever want to run?

The Long Run

The Long Run

I loved those trainers – over the next few years they took me around the Exeter Great West Run three times, a number of local 10kms and many more training miles besides.

My running was a bit sporadic in those days, so they’d  have bursts of wear, then get to rest up in a quiet corner of the wardrobe for weeks on end.

When I decided to run the 2005 London Marathon to celebrate being 40, I dug them out and was surprised, but also quietly proud, to see that my legs and my desire for running had outlasted my shoes – now sitting there without any tread, looking rather sad and forlorn.

Seeking out pair number two, there seemed to be an even wider selection to pick from, in a range of bold colours, and with different support.

Those Jazz shoes had served me well. I decided to stick with what I knew and go for another pair of Saucony’s. They became my new favourite shoe, taking pride of place in the wardrobe. My old Jazz trainers still loved, but now saved for walking or gardening.

Pyramid training

Pyramid training

London was tough. Tougher than anything I’d ever done. I was on my last legs by the time I reached Birdcage Walk, but my shoes gave my feet enough support to cross the finish line. I never intended to run more than one marathon, but something about the whole experience clicked, not least that I developed a shoe fetish.

Each time I wore a pair out, I’d get to savour the delight of unwrapping a new gleaming bright pair from their box, the excitement of putting them on, tying the laces and trotting down the road in them for the first time.

My Saucony’s have taken me around several big city marathons – London twice, along with Paris, New York, Rome, Belfast, Dublin, Edinburgh, Barcelona and Palma, three times.

Group stretches

Group stretches

They’ve pounded 26.2 miles around the quiet country lanes of North Dorset, Kent, Somerset, Suffolk, Pembrokeshire, Devon and Cornwall.

I’ve ventured into trail running in off-road pairs as well, completing The Grizzly three times, and Hadrian’s Wall, along with the Cheddar Gorge, Beachy Head and Bath Marathons.

I’m now on Saucony pairs number 12 and 13 – the gorgeous Guide 8 in white and twilight, with pink soles; the off road Peregrine 5 a deep shade of purple, red and green, with red soles like flat, comfortable Louboutins.

I’m excited already about breaking in gently those new Guide 8s to wear in my, what I hope will be my 50th marathon, Edinburgh on May 31st, three days after my 50th birthday.

Rest and recovery

Rest and recovery

My old pairs, in various stages of wear, still fill the house, and continue to be used – driving my husband mad as they cluster inside the front and back doors, or wet and muddy, sit drying on an outside step.

I probably own more trainers now than everyday proper shoes – certainly more than shoes with heels.

You see a secret shoe fetish doesn’t have to be all about stilettos.

Land’s End

What do you know about Land’s End?

Is it to you that place of natural beauty, the stunning rocky coastline on the South West tip of England where the final grain of solid terra firma dips its toe into the Atlantic and disappears beneath a vast gulf, an ocean?

Or is it the end of communication between you and a loved one with dementia? You standing on the cliff top, secure, firm-footed, with the familiar landmarks of vowels and consonants, sentences, paragraphs. Them wide-eyed, vacant, unable to understand or respond to the mass of information you try to impart, lost without words in a turbulent sea.

So much of life experience is our ability to talk to each other – words of comfort, words of caution, advice, direction, questions, words of love.

Without them, there can be an emptiness, a sense of the deep unknown, the oblivion of silence – adrift in open water, with no familiar landmark to guide by.

It’s been like that with my dad, who’s dementia has brought with it severe dysphasia, leaving him with an almost total inability to speak.

I try constantly to find something that will generate a response, launch some verbal life raft by which I can reach him, or he can reach me.

It’s hard. Really hard. I’m on that cliff edge and I see him beyond the jagged rocks, floundering in the churning waves. I’m calling to him, but my voice is carried away by the wind.

“Dad! Dad! I’m here! I’m trying to rescue you. Look! Look! Swim back to me. You can do it. Dad!”

But he’s fighting so much himself to stay afloat in the turbulent water, that he can’t negotiate a return to the shore he once knew so well. He sees me. He knows me. But he’s in a world beyond mine – a waterworld without words, to my solid rock of speech.

Some days I discover a life raft that does connect us – briefly bridge that gap between land and sea.

On my last visit, it was a photo album I took along, pictures from many years ago when I walked the South West Coast Path.

Dad gazed silently at the images, lingering over some – were they familiar, would he recognise them? Yes? No. Page after page he passed on without expression.

09-03-2015 194328That is until he reached a picture of the iconic stretch of craggy cliffs, with the famous tourist trap signpost that marks Britain’s south west extremity, Land’s End.

It’s a place we’ve visited many times together. The picture was of me sitting by the post. He pointed and simply said: “Land’s End.”

It may not seem much, but those were the first two clear words he’d spoken in weeks.

He’d come out of his sea and was back on the shore. Back with me. My Dad.

It was all too brief, but unforgettable and momentous – rather like a visit to Land’s End itself.

It can be an unfamiliar and sometimes scary experience visiting people with dementia, trying to reach out to them when they’re beyond your shoreline. The obstacles can feel overwhelming, requiring of effort – like climbing craggy cliffs, a terrifying drop below to the raging sea.

But when you go there and just let yourself be there, immerse yourself in that wild, untamed place, the rewards can be great.

Land’s End is not Journey’s End.

 

Footnote: Thanks to my nephew Huw for sorting the web links. A reminder about the MND documentary Filming My Father in Life and Death, which is on Channel 5 11th March at 7pm, which is about my cousin Steve Isaac. MND like dementia strips words away, but there are so many other ways to communicate.

 

 

A bear of very little brain…..

I’ve been sitting here for the last hour or more trying to add a couple of permanent web links to this blog.

I’ve tried every possible combination I can think of in the site admin pages, to no avail.

Huw Bishop (that’s my IT proficient nephew) I need your help!!

You see when it comes to technology, like Winnie the Pooh, I really am a bear of very little brain.

I felt like that last evening as well when I was at the Exeter University research laboratory where BRACE funded lecturer Dr Katie Lunnon was demonstrating some of her incredible cutting-edge work.

WOW! Talk about mind-blowing. Science was my worst subject at school. So the array of whirring machines and the depth of analysis and detail that Katie so eloquently described mostly went over my head. It was rather like the whoosh of a jumbo jet if you were standing underneath – I just couldn’t take it all in, but at the same time, I was aware of something huge, powerful and exciting taking off before me.

Katie was talking at the first get together of what’s hoped will lead to the setting up of a Devon support group for BRACE – something that everyone at the meeting was very enthusiastic about, and all passionate in their own way to do as much as they can to fight dementia.

I’ve just added another string to my bow on that front, having completed the Alzheimer’s Society Dementia Champion training course, which is about raising awareness in a targeted way, encouraging more people to become Dementia Friends and commit to something they can also do to help.

Already one million people have signed up, which is fantastic, and shows how each of us – even in a small way – by working together can help achieve real change.

Last week I also wrote about my cousin Steve Isaac and the documentary Filming My Father in Life and Death. After being posted on social media, the trailer had 30,000 views within two days – incredible. The film will be shown 11th March on Channel 5 in the UK and released internationally via BBC Worldwide.

Here are some links in short form to the topics above……….

Home

https://www.facebook.com/FilmingMyFather?fref=nf

https://www.dementiafriends.org.uk/

……hopefully with a bit of technical help, by next week I’ll have the full links and images permanently attached to the page.

In the meantime, this bear of very little brain, but usefully strong legs is off to do something it can tackle more easily, like – go for a training run!